yes, finally chem paper was over. hmm, what can i say about it .... it's definitely the most amazing paper i've ever done. it's like the chem department's ultimate wish for every single one of us to jump buildings -.-" they have a super cruel and scary way of preparing you for A level. now i finally understand fully why people call chem department the killing machine. and well, people say that njc chem paper is the most challenging in singapore. so they have to live up with their reputation somehow right -.-" siao. i think i will just get a C most probably, unless i get VERY lucky then it's a B. forget about A lah, the faraway, unreachable dream. at least i'm comforted that everyone did just as badly as i did. haha, so we die as a whole, yah? just forget about it lah, only 2 more papers to go only. i should be happy by now :) math and physics. i'm more concerned about physics. but hey, i did my revision, if i continue somemore, i can go straight to IMH already :) heck.

and today i did something voluntarily, that i wasn't even aware i did it until it's been done. and i'm scared shitless... does this mean whatever i've done had gone without a trace? does this mean i'm back at square 1 again and have to start over again? or is it just a normal thing that i've read in too much? i don't know, but i really hope it's the latter. scared.