A photo, can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million things
I wanna say
A photo, can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you
Yeah...

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I got
Maybe one day, you and me will have
One more shot

Timing, lost minutes and moments
Yeah, I might be lonely, girl
But I'm not afraid
In a second, it all comes right back to me
No, nothing's forgotten now
Yeah, everything's saved

What it's like to touch you
What it's like to know you
Yeah...

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

You were my life
You were my faith
You gave me hope everyday

WHen you told me that you loved me
Were those just words
You can't tell me you don't need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause it's all I got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot



just realised, we have so few photos together....

YES, FINALLY!!!!!!! PW IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay, it's a darn good news. hehehehe, now, i'm officially free. the OP was quite okay, except for the fact that we all got quite nervous and spoke rather fast. the q&a is actually quite good. we all could answer the questions quite confident. haha. keep your hope up guys :D lol

the SAT was rather quite bad. i suspect that i have to take again, maybe next year. it's weird when dad asked me to gauge the mark that i'm gonna get. lol how i know one? hahaha. it's muliple choice leh. the one that you know, you know you chose correctly right. but the one you don't know, you just choose the most appealing one what. then it may be correct, may be not lah. so yes, i don't know. but i'm just gonna wait and pray. hehehe.

after SAT was class outing. fun. memorable. built sand castle. played captain's ball. rode bicycle. on the side note, i lost wallet and handphone (so yah, don't try to contact me), also a set of clothes, a hair conditioner bottle, a shampoo bottle, a facial wash tube, and yes, my bag. lol.

anyway, i've alr made a new bank card. getting new ic on 17 nov. lucky. leaving singapore on 23 nov. and i need to buy new wallet and bag.

mom said it's flooded at home. haha. so funny. my family had to move to live with my auntie. lol. going home soon. yay :D now i'm gonna have to do all the holiday assignment, so that i can play in vietnam :D

back to work.

i would never expect me to say this. but the past few days, i've been playing so much that i'm too tired now, even to type this post. going to timbre for ama's birthday, steamboat at lynna's and a so called early birthday celebration during today's lunch. everything was just magnificient. i feel so happy and extremely grateful to have known such great people. oh and did i mention that i'm an addict? yes, i'm addicted to bridge. hahaha funny how attractive a set of 52 cards can be. i know i know i'm not very good at it (kristy we lost 4 out of 5! sianzzz) but the whole point is to have fun right. and bridge certainly does bring the fun.

exactly 1 more week to SAT. it's so predictable that i'm going to have to take it again. maybe next year. as long as i can get above 2200, i'm satisfied :)

on an extremely wonderful note, i don't have to do astar research anymore :)))) it was a very sudden news and i did not expect it at all. on the opposite, i checked email that day to see which institute i will have to go to and who my supervisor is etc. but no, hahaaha, i'm exempted from it. yay, this means i can go home early, on 23 nov for exact. but most probably i'll miss my birthday here though (you guys had better buy me some present -.-) in the mean time, i still have this whole bunch of holiday assignment that i have to clear in this few days to come since once i'm in vietnam, there'll be no studying.

for some reason, the idea of being a doctor is still hanging around in my head. (i know i know my chem is not the best of all -.- and of course nus med is out of question since it's such a factual thing that i'm so gonna get REJECTED :D). so i'm starting to wonder, again. why is it always like this? when you are so sure of something, then another thing happens to throw you off guard, to make you think, wonder, worry, and reconsider. am i the only one experiencing this? urrrrhhhh. i don't know. maybe it's just a infatuation or something of the sort. again, i wish there is definite answer for everything, to make life simpler and to cease this headache that i'm having.

it's quite clear that i'm not gonna blog again at least until op is over. so i'm just going to let everything in my head out. doesn't matter who's reading. doesn't matter people understand or not.

it's getting very weird. sometimes i have to ask myself what i am becoming. sometimes i have to question myself. sometimes i have to recheck to know that nothing is wrong. it certainly doesn't feel good to be the single one. it certainly says something. but again. why do i care? it's not like i give a damn about what strangers think before. am i just arrogant? someone told me that i have to give other people some credit. i don't know.....

is it me or is everyone just getting together at the speed of lightning? and as a result of that, I, being curious, nosy and well, gossipy by nature, find hard to keep up with the progress. it's not like i care a lot about it, but sometimes i do ask myself when will i have a girlfriend, when i will fall deeply for someone. i may be pervertic or horny but i'm not despo. this may make me wonder again whether i'm superficial. or does it matter? is this even a question or just a rhetorical one? okay i think i'm typing too much that i'm even lost.

i'm drifting a way from you and i'm getting closer to you. what am i to say. maybe i'm just oversensitive. maybe i'm just nut crazy.

it's a pity i can't make it for class outing next week. counselling. anyhow, it's a good thing. i think i went out too much, still. it's not like i don't want to go though

the past few weeks have been hell. i've been through something that i don't think anyone deserves to go through. but i just want a fresh start so i won't talk much about it. will just keep it safe at the back of my mind.

the results are back. i did damn badly. i want to kill myself. my parents are damn angry. after all they should. i've created so many troubles already. especially physics. omg i can't imagine myself getting a c for it (i'm really sorry if i offend anyone here). and i failed gp -.-" shit luh. wanna cry already. i can careless about math paper as long as i get an overall a. and econs was not a big surprise coz i pratically screwed up case study (thank god for my essay though). and chem, i actually expected a c, and i got a d. i saw a lot of people crying today. even ama was damn sad (sorry for being a jerk then :p)

people are not exactly who you think they are. you think someone are actually worth discovering and actually has some depth. but in the end you find out the person is just too shallow. i don't know if i'm being too harsh. i don't know if i'm being too judgemental. i still have some faith, some hope. is it too blind of me? i don't know and i don't care. i hope everything could be crystal clear, so that there would be no confusion, no misunderstanding and no false faith.

i like number 7, but i don't like 6, or 8 for that matter. 7 is like this holy number. it's a pretty powerful and god blessed number in all beliefs or religions. even if you are free thinker, 7 is still very likable. for me, i like it just because it sounds nice, it's original and it represents this pretty little thing called friendship.

so yah, that's basically it. this past period of my life is full of disappointment and weird emotions. i don't know when it will be over. it's like i'm having this dark cloud above my head that keeps pulling me back from having fun, like a way to punish myself, to detach from the world and to withdraw myself back to the shell and start my hermit cycle.

still waiting for pig to scan that drawing of hers. the idiot went and drew this crazy picture where we all look so stupid and funny.

so today we celebrated fuddy's birthday. it's so late because the actual day was during promo and thus, there's no time to prepare. from my point of view, even though it's the most budget celebration, but it's certainly the sweetest. seriously lor, we put so much effort into it. and the floor thing was just hilarious. he looked like an uncle lol. and he's seriously cmi luh. took long enough to arrange the letters R,C,S,E,T into a word =.= anyway, i'm waiting for kristy to send me the photos

i feel betrayed. so, were all the things you said actually true and you had a change of mind or were they something you just go along with to make conversations? why the change? why the hiding? don't want to and also shouldn't read too much into this. but i guess it's just futile and also no point coz it's not my place. anyway, all the best for whatever may come.

i want to be home now. 3 more effing months =.=

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from the (fire) whoah whoah
and when the sun comes through and lights you like the angel you are whoah whoah
I know I do you wrong when I’m with you I’ve been gone

With every season change, it looks the same (november to june) whoah whoah
And dont these empty streets skip a beat the flowers dont bloom whoah whoah

I can’t believe I missed your birthday again
and I wanna come back but I just don’t know when now

And I’m so lonely your not here with me
That’s why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

The road that never ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah
I’d swim across the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah
cos I’m made a life would be gone
now the way that I feel I just don’t belong

And I’m so lonely you’re not here with me
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home
And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I’m gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment
and be somebody yeah anybody
it seems the whole world is taking me over
I need somebody to help me get back(to n)

and I’ve always been a million miles away
but things are gonna change
I just wanna come home

And you’re you’re the only face I wanna see
thats why I gonna be on the next plane home
yeah I’m taking the next plane home
Now I’m getting the next plane home
Now I’m taking the next plane home

first and foremost, i really must say: WOOHOO!!!!!! IT'S SOOOO OVER!!!!!!!!

yup, promo is over my friends. and my life is back to wonderful and jobless (well, PW aside of course :))

and jobless plus laziness are ones of the post-exam symptoms that i'm showing currently. anyhow, i really have to say that god has the most amazing ways of compensating for your hardship, in the most unexpected way. so it happened like this for me. after a long day walking aimlessly in orchard with sleepy (due to her irregularly high mood after exam), i had to wait for the bus alone since somebody was afraid that she'd die if she had to take MRT -.-" and when my bus come, i boarded it like everyone else. a few stops later, this crazily hot angmoh girl shown up and chose to stand next to me :) (in fact, there's no where else to stand lol). and the god blessing part came when i realised my height is just right for her boobs and she's not wearing any freaking bras :D lol okay, so you get the ideas. i don't want to sound too pervert here anyway :P but yup, trust god. he'll pay your due somehow :D

haiz, nothing more to say already. i'm just .... FREE now :D

okay, so finally chem paper was over. it's not as dreadful as the common test last time, and i'm having a very bold vision that i'll actually pass for good this time round. only math (which will start in less than 8 hrs) and physics are left. hoorray.

i've just realised that i never study much for exams, especially ever since i came here. previously, i would have mugged my ass off if i were in vietnam and the final exam was coming. but now, well, not much. seriously, it's not because of my lazy nature or my little malfunctional brain. it's just somehow i'm not actually stressed or scared until the very last minute. that's why it's been a tradition of mine to stay up all night before the exam day, mug or read notes, then go do the paper. even for econs, i only started reading like 2, 3 days before the paper. the remaining time, i was just goofing around.

haiz, enough exam thoughts. on a more cheerful note, a lot of birthdays are coming y'all (take a hint here *ahem*). can't wait to pull all the tricks we prepared on the birthday boy/girls. and finally i get to allocate time for SAT. i'm really hoping that i could just pull this off in maximum 2 times. and i will have more time to touch back on my jap stuff (which is so long forgotten).

it's actually a bad habit of mine that i usually criticise when i read people's blogs. like there's this voice inside my head that keeps repeating "bullshit" or "so stupid" or "so pathetic" etc. there, you get the idea. and since i can't seem to get rid of it coz it has become somewhat an involuntary reaction to me, i've decided to be nicer by avoiding random blogs :D smart ideas right :)

and now i'm ranting. it just occurred to me that my posts rarely have specific topics. they are mostly rants that flash through my head as i type. very random. okay, i should just stop and wrap this up. i have a freaking paper tomorrow (math). god, when will you spare me of this stupid and boring thing called math? -.- too bad i don't think i'll be granted that wish, at least in this life time since i stick to economics, which means math is a must :(( suck!