i would never expect me to say this. but the past few days, i've been playing so much that i'm too tired now, even to type this post. going to timbre for ama's birthday, steamboat at lynna's and a so called early birthday celebration during today's lunch. everything was just magnificient. i feel so happy and extremely grateful to have known such great people. oh and did i mention that i'm an addict? yes, i'm addicted to bridge. hahaha funny how attractive a set of 52 cards can be. i know i know i'm not very good at it (kristy we lost 4 out of 5! sianzzz) but the whole point is to have fun right. and bridge certainly does bring the fun.
exactly 1 more week to SAT. it's so predictable that i'm going to have to take it again. maybe next year. as long as i can get above 2200, i'm satisfied :)
on an extremely wonderful note, i don't have to do astar research anymore :)))) it was a very sudden news and i did not expect it at all. on the opposite, i checked email that day to see which institute i will have to go to and who my supervisor is etc. but no, hahaaha, i'm exempted from it. yay, this means i can go home early, on 23 nov for exact. but most probably i'll miss my birthday here though (you guys had better buy me some present -.-) in the mean time, i still have this whole bunch of holiday assignment that i have to clear in this few days to come since once i'm in vietnam, there'll be no studying.
for some reason, the idea of being a doctor is still hanging around in my head. (i know i know my chem is not the best of all -.- and of course nus med is out of question since it's such a factual thing that i'm so gonna get REJECTED :D). so i'm starting to wonder, again. why is it always like this? when you are so sure of something, then another thing happens to throw you off guard, to make you think, wonder, worry, and reconsider. am i the only one experiencing this? urrrrhhhh. i don't know. maybe it's just a infatuation or something of the sort. again, i wish there is definite answer for everything, to make life simpler and to cease this headache that i'm having.
it's quite clear that i'm not gonna blog again at least until op is over. so i'm just going to let everything in my head out. doesn't matter who's reading. doesn't matter people understand or not.
it's getting very weird. sometimes i have to ask myself what i am becoming. sometimes i have to question myself. sometimes i have to recheck to know that nothing is wrong. it certainly doesn't feel good to be the single one. it certainly says something. but again. why do i care? it's not like i give a damn about what strangers think before. am i just arrogant? someone told me that i have to give other people some credit. i don't know.....
is it me or is everyone just getting together at the speed of lightning? and as a result of that, I, being curious, nosy and well, gossipy by nature, find hard to keep up with the progress. it's not like i care a lot about it, but sometimes i do ask myself when will i have a girlfriend, when i will fall deeply for someone. i may be pervertic or horny but i'm not despo. this may make me wonder again whether i'm superficial. or does it matter? is this even a question or just a rhetorical one? okay i think i'm typing too much that i'm even lost.
i'm drifting a way from you and i'm getting closer to you. what am i to say. maybe i'm just oversensitive. maybe i'm just nut crazy.
it's a pity i can't make it for class outing next week. counselling. anyhow, it's a good thing. i think i went out too much, still. it's not like i don't want to go though
25.10.08
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